Saturday, June 29, 2013

It's All Fun and Games 'til Someone Loses Their Hair...or Their Lunch.

It's been kind of a banner week in terms of milestones, accomplishments, and valuable lessons.

First, I have begun my descent!  With 58 pounds lost and 57 to go, I have officially breached the halfway point in my journey.  Woo-hoo!!!! I know the second half won't be as quick as the first half, but having been on this trip now for the better part of three months, I am confident it will be smoother - at least for awhile.  I'm not thinking about the landing yet.  I just know that having gotten more used to my new system and my changing body, I'm more prepared for the second half than I was when I first took off.  Also?  I'm just a few pounds from "One-derland."  Looks like I'll be adding a couple more charms to that bracelet soon!!

I know that this next accomplishment may seem a little silly and is perhaps not such a huge deal to most people, but a couple nights ago I was lying on the sofa on my back.  The show I was watching was over, so I sat up to grab the remote.  And just like that...I sat up.  I knew something felt different to me, but what?  And then I realized it: I'd sat up from a lying down position without using my arms, without rolling over,  without swinging my legs off the side, without rocking back and forth, without struggling like a turtle flipped on its shell.  This, my friends, is a big deal.  It means that even though I'm still carrying a great deal of excess weight in my midsection, those abdominal and lower back workouts are doing their thing and my muscles are stronger. I was so excited that I continued to sit up and lay down a few more times just to make sure it wasn't a fluke.  Hey, you know...it's the little things.

The third milestone - if you can really call it that - is that I've reached the point in this journey where my hair is starting to fall out.  I knew this day would come, and I knew it would be sometime around the three-month mark.  But yeah, it's happening.  The drain trap in my tub is gross with hair after I shower, and big clumps of hair come out with the comb.  When I take it down out of the clip after work, I get another handful of hair.  And I've noticed many strands on my pillow in the morning as well.  I'm trying not to stress about it because (a) I know it'll grow back, (b) I have a LOT of hair, so it's not like it's all that noticeable if some of it is missing, and (c) it gives me an excuse to buy some cute new hats.

However, I do know that I can help the situation if I ramp up my protein intake and pay close attention to my nutritional choices. I learned a hard but very valuable lesson last week when I didn't do that (remember the last post about getting lazy around this time?) and after two days of forgetting to take my vitamins and making poor food choices, I hit a wall.  My body simply said, "Yeah, you know what?  Fuck you."  And I was done for.   Too many carbs, not enough protein, too few vitamins, and too much sugar.  It doesn't take a lot of excess or deficit to throw me off, I've discovered, and the repercussions are pretty swift and severe.

Between last week's crash and this week's wad of hair in my drain, I'm reminded how important it is to pay attention to my diet.  And that throwing-up business?  That's getting tiresome, too.  When I started this journey, I signed a contract to myself.  It opens with this line: "I will be hyper-aware of everything I put in my mouth and will eat mindfully and with purpose." So this coming week's goals are to honor that commitment, to work an extra protein shake into every day, to continue to stay on track with my workouts, and to remember my vitamins.

Oh, and I've got some shopping to do, too.  :-)

3 comments:

  1. Hang in there
    Deedee you look fab!

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  2. Love reading this blog. You're a great writer, and this voyage you've taken has been very inspirational. You go on with yer bad self!

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