Sunday, February 17, 2013

The ''Easy Way Out"

I told a coworker yesterday about my surgery, and she said, "what's that?"  I explained the procedure to her, and she said, "Why are you going to get that?  Oh, you want the easy way out?"

I know that's not the last time I'm going to hear that exact phrase, and I should steel myself from future utterances, but it kind of ground my gears.  It's the same as people who I reference in my earlier post, who think I'm just giving up on my willpower and taking this road to avoid doing any real work on myself.

Bull. Shit.

I think what people don't realize is that once I get this surgery, I don't just wake up and magically watch the pounds disappear while I go about my life as it was. I have signed on for a life of portion control, ingredient/nutrient awareness, and regular exercise.  I still have to be über aware of what's going into my body, still have to ensure I'm getting adequate nutrition, and have to eat specific amounts of certain nutrients to ensure optimal health through all of this.  When you're on Weight Watchers, you can say, "Ah, the hell with it - I'll eat the cake and make up for the points tomorrow," or use your "flex points" or whatever it is they're doing in the current incarnation of the program.  I won't have that luxury.  If I eat the cake I'll throw the fuck up.  That's probably the simplest thing about this.

None of this is easy - or simple.  It's complicated and it's filled with hassle, and there's real potential to prevent loss or even gain the weight back if this surgery is not accompanied by healthy habits and total awareness.

To get to the point I am now, I had to endure THIRTY YEARS of up-down-up-down extreme weight fluctuations of MASSIVE amounts.  Given the choice, and knowing what I know now, I would have taken the real easy way out and not gained the weight back the first time I lost it back in 1983.  But it's too late for that, and after going up 40, down 30, up 60, down 70, up 90, down 60, up 80, down 40, and so on, on a regular basis, the only "easy" thing about this surgery is knowing those days are behind me. 

I'm not taking the easy way out.  I'm taking the only way out now.

2 comments:

  1. i wanted to erupt in anger at your naive idiotic lazy co-worker, because only someone lazy would suggest that YOU HAVING SURGERY is the easy way out - but you said it much more maturely and elegantly than i would. kudos
    ps: my favorite way to describe it is as a tool, not the solution

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